I am such a brat. I find myself finding reasons to hate people.
Like really, I can make myself hate anyone, and it makes me so sad!
Just this week I was thinking about someone I don't really know, and I was thinking of everything I hate about her. Me and my friend started talking about it, and I realized how jealous I was of this girl. Like she had everything I wanted and I couldn't get over how jealous I was and I started making up excuses to hate her. I got so upset about how jealous I was that it made me in a bad mood and made me hate her more!
This poor girl. I don't even know her, and I didn't even give myself a chance to get to know her. I just jumped to the conclusion that since she had some of the things I've wanted for awhile that it was okay to hate her. ITS NOT!
Also, last weekend made me so mad. I was mad all night just about this little thing they did. I don't even think they realized I was mad about it. But I totally plotted revenge to hurt their feelings as well. Who does that?! I'm still not over it, and I'm still coming up with better ways to get revenge. Its horrible! I don't even feel guilty.
I am a brat.
Not only do I hate strangers, I think I use revenge to solve my problems.
Don't do that.
muuuuuuusic! my life.
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27.12.07
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Posted by allie at 9:01 PM
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We all do that Allie. Your human, you just have to not let yourself look for revenge or hate people cuz they have more than you. Prayer helps...I know it sounds wierd but it does. And if you didnt feel guilty you would write about it like you did. I know you dont want to be like that and neither do I. Its sad when it sneaks up on us....just get it out of your head and look for reasons you like your friends...maybe focusing on the positive will help. Love you.
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